from the crazy bungisngis girl

They say you don’t let first timers see you…

so thank you for showing yourself to first timers like us…

You are breathtakingly beautiful :) See you again soon!

What every girl wishes to say to their greatest heartbreaker
 
I think you know how you broke my heart and how much pain you’ve caused. I was too scared to admit that you almost broke everything about me. I actually didn’t have time to think about your feelings back then. I was busy trying to bounce back, living one day at a time. I’ve seen this a thousand times. I’ve seen how my friends’ lives crumble when their boyfriends left them. I didn’t have any plans of dating anyone, more so committing. You know my story. You know who I was before we met. I was the happy go lucky girl who didn’t believe in commitments, labels, promises, and what-have-yous. I was skeptical about everything. I built this very high wall to protect mysel. I had all kinds of issues! All these things changed when I met you. I let you affect me. I let you label me (as a girlfriend). I obeyed you. I agreed to your terms. You became my life. My love.  
I was so sure about you. I was so ready to make everything right this time. No more walls, issues, setbacks. I was determined to never commit the same mistakes again. I introduced you to my family. My dad almost got a heart attack when you paid a visit. I think you get the picture. I loved you so much. I allowed you to be part of everything about me.  
So when things didn’t work out, my world collapsed. I wish it didn’t. I promised myself not to commit the same mistakes with my past relationships. So this time, I decided to fight for you. You were a lot to lose, like I told you, so I just waited. I believe I was never the clingy-needy type. I just waited for you until the day I saw that you’ve moved on already. It was so hard for me to recover. I didn’t think I would still have a chance to be extremely happy. The hardest to let go were the memories: our laughter, our sweet nothings, our adventures, and misadventures. I believe we had so much fun together. The hardest part was accepting that you’re gone and we won’t have that much fun anymore. Oh well.
 
I guess I really loved you too much that I forced myself to cut everything and let you be happy. I let you move on. I just trained myself to accept everything wholeheartedly. I tried to be happy for you. Well I did become happy for you, in the long run.  
Nevertheless, I still believe everything was worth it. I was happiest to be with you. No regrets whatsoever. I wouldn’t change anything. So I still want to thank you. Thank you for teaching me a lot of things. Thank you for all our adventures and misadventures. Everything was worth every tear. I’m sorry for everything too. I’m sorry if I made things harder for you. I just want to say sorry and thank you.
Now, I am back to square one. Should I trust anyone again? Will I still get my happy ending?

is my weekly oovoo date with the Punggirls :)

I love you both, @ayahponce and @angeliquemagno :)

Dear Lord,

I just want to thank you for your surprises.
Thank you for giving me at least one reason to smile everyday.
Things may not come my way but You always give me something to be thankful about.
Lastly, thank you for letting me see and appreciate these blessings. 

I wish I can be 21 again — fun, fearless, and crazy! I was about to write in love. HAHA!

-coz I’m just a crazy lola at 23 :P